I am a dreamer. I dream about the future a lot, and I think i romanticize a lot of things. Everything I dream about may not be as great as I think. And that scares me.
It really annoys me when adults nag me about how my generation is so different from theirs.When they tell me something is wrong with my generation. But did they ever consider, they are the ones that raised us.
All I want to tell my younger self, my present self, and my future self is, you will be okay. The sun will shine again.
I am very undecided on my thoughts on the death penalty. I agree that people who kill should not be able to walk free. But I don't think that killing people who kill people to show that killing people is right. Killing someone who has committed a horrible crime is the best thing you could do for them. Their pain is over, they don't have to live with what they did. Their just done. I have considered that if we just give them a life sentence that tax payer dollars have to go towards keeping them alive. I don't know if I ever will decide my stance on the death penalty.
These blogs have been something that we've been working on all semester and admittedly, I have not done a good job on keeping up with my blog. I feel as though i've been thinking that the quantity of posts are not as important as the quality of them. It's very convenient that i'm coming to this conclusion a few minute before all these posts are due. I know that I can write 30 blogs but 30 blogs does not equal 30 good blogs.
My pet peeves. And things that annoy me. There are many things in the in the world that annoy me and I'm just going to stockpile them all that I can think of. One thing that's pretty relevant in my life right now is when adults tell me that I have a lot of time to get things figured out and then I don't need to be worried about the fact that I don't have everything figured out right now. It's not true because don't have a lot of time to figure everything out, my future is coming so fast and they're just telling you that it's not going to come fast but we both know that it is. Another thing that annoys me that is pretty relevant in my life at the moment is at school walking from class to class or walking to see my friends at lunch or whatever and people will walk down the hallways super slow or they see their friends and they stop in the middle of the hallway and it's so hard to get around them because the hallway is already so full of people. Another thing that really annoys me is one people anyone talks down to me and kind of patronize me, or make me feel like I'm a child which know in a sense I am a child, but I'm not stupid and it annoys me when people talk to me like I'm stupid. There are many more things that annoy me but these are just a few that are on my mind right now. I was talking with a friend recently and we were talking about how it seems like whenever we try to look good and we see ourselves in a mirror or a photo or something we think that we don't look as good. But when we're not trying to look good we see ourselves as looking better. I was thinking about it and I think because we want to look good and we try to look good we can't see ourselves as looking good because were trying to fit a mold but when we are just being ourselves and not trying to look like anything then we just see ourselves as looking better because we are try not trying to fit any expectations.
I do not want to grow to be a bitter adult like I see so many adults becoming. But is there any way to avoid it? Maybe everyone is doomed to eventually become that. There is a Yoko Ono quote that goes; “Some people are old at 18 and some people are young at 90… time is a concept humans created.” I wonder how it happens. How do you stop yourself from becoming old at 18? If that is where i’m headed I only have 2 years left of being young. I want to stay young as long as I can. I don’t mean Iike I don’t want to mature at all, I already consider myself to be mature for my age. But I hope I never lose that spontaneity in my life.
We are told we are too young to have real problems.
Yet we are too old to enjoy the things we did when we younger. We are expected to act like adults. Yet we are treated like children. How did we come to this conclusion? Who said that my age determines what I can and can't feel. I know that age isn't anything more than a number. But yet, I can't feel real stress because I am "too young." When will we be old enough to know what is it like to experience life? Because I know i'm not invincible but you still make it seem like I am. I do not understand religion. I was raised Atheist, but as soon as I started school I soon found out about the world of religion. I never thought anything of it when I was younger, but as I grow and I see how people lives are run by this "greater being," and I don't understand it. I have some questions; If God knows everything that will happen during my life, why doesn't he do something to prevent the horrible things that I will experience? Where is the evidence that God even exists? Why should I let something, that I have no idea is real or not, run my life? Why should I put them before myself? Why do you have to ask for forgiveness, if you knew it was wrong, why did you do it? Why only talk about the good things that occur in the bible? Why do we never hear about about the sexism and racism? Why is rape not a punishable crime, according to the bible. Why does the bible encourage slavery? I thought God loved everyone equally. If he loved everyone equally, why does "God hate gays?" Why did he create evil? How is there even more than one God? These are just a few of the questions I have. Some people have tried to give me answers but I still remain very confused.
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